maybe its a cosmic revelation or just the harhness of reality falling down on me like a stainless steel 30 tier oven rack filled with frozen food crashing on top of my head after i slipped on the floor, or my self crashing on top of my ultra rare red seiko aka alba watch as it explodes into  pieces ripping apart the flesh of my wrist since its still being worn followed by the rest of the 210lbs of mehitting the icey freezer floor. or just simply ariving a half an hour early to lunch waiting in the car and realizing i left my phone at the house thinking shell just come down anyway but didnt cause i didnt answer the phone.. so another hour later im back at the house with 3 missed calls saying "im hungry". After which I decided to go get the apartment key coppied only i forgot where i put the keys... then i think oh shit the cats are gonna die now cause i cant get in the apartment and feed them and then try to figure out how to break into a top floor apartment and not get arrested or fined.... So i call everyone in my family since there all in cali, more specifically DISNEY..... but everyone phone isnt working, I finally get a hold of mom and then tried to get dad on the phone asking if theres a spare key somewhere, after that their phone cuts off and i cant get throuhg anymore. So im panicaking then i rember where the keys are!!!!!! there next to the giant wad of cash hanging from the lamp. so i get the copy made and atach it to my keychain and it will never be lost again, unless i lose my belt then im screwed.

 This is Gahatsu (guts) one of the cats im taking care of.

 and this is the fireworks ass seen from the apartment durring the 4th of july

 and this is my preying mantis. havent named it but it likes to kill things without eating them......

Other than the crappy start off of event, i'm still alive...... so i guess that works. Im still trying to find that thing that would justify my existance.... As a chef I feel perplexed... mostly because I dont like to eat my own cooking. When i cook for my self its seems pointless. It doesnt matter how good something I make is if theres no one there to try it ya know? as a chef I will only try my best if i am making something for someone else, something to make them happy, or so i think. But mostly I think its just the fact I hate eating alone. then theres the forgetting to eat at all thing... and yet i still weigh so much so im still confused about that.

For otakon were going as Special Police Dekaranger. everyone is accounted for excet for dekayellow. Must find asian girl with medium-long straight hair that is taller than my sister and woudl actually enjoy a convention specializing in japanese animation. Almost have all the materials for the uniforms, and im half way done with the spd change notebooks (morphers). It'll be interesting.

I guess the last update of news would be the Mideval times company picnik. Ill be cooking food for it along with my boss and one helper and Im alowed to bing one guest. but pretty much eveone i asked either said NO, or is working on monday, Who works on a Monday!!!!... well pretty much everyone. >< It doent really matter anyway since its just a picnik and ill have to work tehre anyway. >< I sugested we have a picknic so i coudl play baseball not cook burgers! stupid castle. The worst part is is that it was supose to be at some really cool beach but they just changed it last week to centenial park. so basically on my day off insted of driving to annarundell i can walk to work! oh joy.

well tomorows another day so hopefully my luck will flip back to normal. As for existing i guess ill just do that.

-red out

Notice something wrong wiht the following email from UMBC Academic Services? Mainly the last few lines... 

June 4, 2004

Dear Victor,

A review of your record indicates that you may be nearing graduation. If you are
interested in applying for your diploma the deadlines are as follows:



   Graduation
      August 2004
      December 2004

   Application Deadline
      June 15
      September 15

To apply for graduation:


Pick up the Diploma Application for Undergraduate Degree at the Academic Services
Office located in the Academic Services Building.
Pay the $100 Diploma Application fee at the Cashier's Office, 3rd floor
Administration Building.
Bring the completed Diploma Application and receipt of payment to the Academic
Services Office.
Commencement exercises will be held in December only. August and December candidates
are invited to participate in the December commencement exercises. Diploma
applicants will receive additional information on the December commencement ceremony
to be held on Thursday, December 23 at the Retriever Activities Center. For
questions about applying for graduation, please contact the Academic Services Office
at (410) 455-2500 or graduation@umbc.edu.

Sincerely,
Ms. Lydia Jackson-Fryer
Associate Director of Academic Services

Student: Victor Arafiles
Major: Undeclared
Second Major or Minor: NA
Degree Objective: BA

Its the little things that matter...

 JDM Markings

 Layered Pineaple Mango Drinks

 Functional Quad Monitor Setup (tv on top doesn't count since its not hooked up to the desktop pc)

And of course

 Bottle Feeding My Baby ^_^ (made a blue bottle red and carbonfibered)

And thats what Ive been up to the past week.

Red Ranger Out

Okay an update of sorts.

Fist things first the semi distant future... Since 2 of the required classes needed for one of my majors, amongst other things, were canceled. I had to revamp my schedule and this is what I needed up with. On Mondays and Wednesdays I'm done by 3:30. Tuesdays I have only one class, Thursdays I'm in school from 10 to 10 and then Fridays Saturdays and Sundays I go back to the dark corridors of the castle and work.

Things in Maryland were getting kinda hectic. Apparently there was some sort for hurricane that one time when the sky was falling causing flooding and downed trees and several fire hydrants near my house to explode.

I went to Ohio after dropping Lauren off at the airport. I haven't been home in a couple months, and then before that was... way to long to remember but there were a few years in there somewhere. In Maryland I only saw cicadas once at the grave yard. They were kinda big but most of them didn't make it through the transformation process. Once we got to Ohio there were thousands of them in all stages of development. The center picture is of a freshly hatch liquids in Keith’s hand, the pigment hasn’t set yet. And the last picture is the result of having a very very very long driveway filled with hundreds and hundreds of crawling cicadas.

Though my reason for coming back to Ohio wasn’t for the happiest of occasions, I did get to meet my niece and nephews. The youngest, Legne (Li-Gen) one is my 21yr old cousins son. He’s only 6 days old in the picture (I kinda feel sorry for the little bugger, they just made up a name for him because they already knew someone that recently had a baby with the name they wanted to name him). He’s the size of my sister’s kittens. The next youngest is Sophia but she was to shy to get any good pics of her. Then the oldest one is Ivan. He likes to snap his fingers but in the picture you can’t see his thumb so it looks like he’s flicking you off hehe. And the last picture is of him playing with my switch blade isn’t that cute!!!! He can talk a little but not much he tries to say my name but instead of Uncle Victor he says Uncle Big Dog. So they were a very uplifting sight and I got to show them my animations.

Now I'm back in Maryland trying to get back into my daily routine. The people in the castle missed me, and a lot of the Mexicans changed there appearances with hairstyles and some of them shaved making it very difficult to identify them. The castle also hired a lot of new staff members.

Being with family for once wasn’t as awkward as it usually was. I had a lot of time to think especially when I was the only one awake in the old house. There is definitely something or someone missing in my life. Have you ever had a felling of overwhelming loneliness even when you surrounded by people.

No matter how far I go in my life I always find my way back to my past where I come from, just like the swirly butter cookie. I don’t eat sweets much and I don’t really like any other cookie except for the swirly ones. But there evil cause I should be trying to loose weight now that I’m over the 200lbs mark again... Too bad there’s a tub of them upstairs and 20% are the swirly kind. I should also cut back on the tea and go back to the water based fuel supply. I guess it would also be good to get back into training but time is always a factor now for me. For now ill just focus on the drunken mantis kata and sokken no tonfa kata. Well actually right now ill focus on the swirlys

Red Ranger Out

=( mom dad and auntie left at 8pm to drive to ohio to see grandma but grandma passed away at 1230... They didnt make it in time. I will be going to my old home in ohio soon to see people I havent seen in almost a decade or 2. But for now I have to finish my last project for interactivity.

red out...

Its been a while... A lot of things have come and passed I've planed, I've worked, and yes even bled again for Pistahan till shotime then I had to leave for work. After that I went back to school to help clean up and pack up. At the same time I created my first traditional cut paper animation of Godzilla http://ridge-racer.net/GODZILLA!!!!!!!!!!small.mov 12 midnight till 12 noon construction shooting and editing. The day after Pistahan till may 7th was spent working on my portfolio in order for it to be reviewed. This would determine if I will be able to finally declare my major, get an actual advisor and most importantly be able to be eligible for graduation. I revamped several of my older work to fit the 1 minute per piece. In the end I almost made a perfect score minus 2 points on my photography project. I am accepted and officially, legally, in the art department as a IMDA major for Animation and Interactivity. On the 3rd we had Fasa Election results and after re voting for vice president again, I became co vice president. On the next monday we had our last meeting for the year and after I got home I was able to work on my final animation Initial V http://ridge-racer.net/InitialVweb.mov A stopmotion initial D parody. 6pm started production, which included building a 6ft tall mountain arround my dining room table. I have no more place to eat.... After shooting and editing finished at 7am I headed for class to turn it in by the 8am deadline. The final critique went well and hopefully Ill get a good grade on this one as well. After that I was tie to write a 2 page paper and prepare for the 5pm test. After the test me and Amy went to the caberet to relax and try to get free food form the cook out but it was all gone except for some chips. After a few drinks and a raffle, which we lost, I headed home. I tried calling Sue on the way hom to tell her about the portfolio review but she was bussy with family stuff and her old cell phone was now her parents so she couldn't talk much at the time. After I got home I realized Jordan moved out durring the weekend. I hardly noticed his absence durring all the chaos. Later that night Lauren wasnt feeling well and hadnt eaten while she was studying for exams so I made some soup and dropped ot off at her house. I went home Paied for ebay auctions and got a hold of kevin, It was now 4 am and we agreed to work on the script later today for my last final. I picked him up from school later that day and we called my sister to go eat out, again because I have no place to eat at home due to the giant mountain. WE finished the script guidlines and then I dropped him off arround 1am. arround 3 am I worked on Lingo for my final project and then in the afternoon my parents sister and her husband left for ohio. Again I find my self Isolated from the world but not for long! I go back to the castle for my lovely 12 hour workday cooking soup and vegies and chicken and then the food for the knights and the managers. Got back arround 2 tot eh empty tableless house and completed more ebay transactions and started new Ioffer transactions. Orderd parts for my car, and worked on my project some more. At 10am Jordan calls and He needs a ride to ford cause his amreican car is having problems. Hes had the car for 3 weeks since hes bought it... Anyhoo I droped him off and headed for work for my next 12 hour shift, at the end of teh day I got a pleasnt phone call, not one about someone needing anything but just one for the sake of conversation. Probly the most uplifting thing thats happend in months. I drove  home in the rain but I was happy =). Again more work more tansactions and before i knew it the sun was up agina and it was time again for work. But that was "today" another day in the castle but when I left the castle It was a sight I havent seen in a while, a sight that always seems to amaze me, The sun. Usually when I leave the castle the sun has long been set and the sky is filled in darkness. I picked up jordan later today,,, this evening and on the way home there was this huge ass thing int he road that was moving slowley, natureally my first instince was to turn arround and take a picture. It was a huge snapping turtle, we werent sure at frist from jsut looking at it so jordy tapped it on the shell and sure enuff it snapped at him and almost took a cunk off his hand. My dad said we should have hit it first then it woudl have hid in his shell so i was like lets go back! but jordy was like hell no. so instead we just finished watching the last samurai. Now he is passed out in his old room and I will be here waiting for the phone call from ford about his car. Apearently his brand new cars started is dead, Its under warranty so its free, but still thats pretty messed up. My parents came home tonight from ohio, appearently my grandma was moved to intensive care, she didnt want to have an opperation performed anymore or to be put on life support so alot of my moms family has been flying in from arround the world. On wednesday I'll be driving up to ohio as well then thursday night I drive back home so I can make it to work on friday. But for the rest of today It drive, shoot, edit, print, and encode for tuesdays deadline. Its an intense and lonley life I've built up for my self, Busy as all hell as well but ill have plenty of time for rest wehn im dead. Till tehn I will meet my deadlines and devote verything I have into everything I do.

Red Ranger Out. 

Re did the poster for yet another event I am working on that I won't be able to attend.......

... usaly after a week I get to meet the boyfriend, the good news is there isnt one, the bad news is im not what shes looking for... sushi tomorrow, lots of sushi...

Sushi Sono's Treasure Island: fresh crab and avacado salad topped with flying fish roe

Another year is about to end and another one will begin for me today. My plans fell through for tonight but its nothing I didn't expect. So for tonight I wll just go to sono and order a bunch of Toro....

Red Ranger out

I will write later.....

 
Flowers always die...