Update:

#1. Bro's been REACTIVATED.... Jordy will leave at the end of the month to be sent for a 6 month intensive training for a "special selected team" adn then sent to Iraq.... Hes the only one in his squad chosen for the mission so were not sure what to think about it... Its funny ya know... At the end of last semester I didnt even notice he moved out of the house til 3 weeks later wehn we were havingt lunch. And now at the end of this semester he might be going on a one way . . . Well find out in one year. And hopefully Things will work out for the best... Im supose to meet up with him in 7 hours for lunch, he said theres something he wanted me to have before.  WTF does the military need a TELEPHONE OPERATOR for a special mission!!!!! er "Communications Officer". Theres no Ocean in Iraq!

 Theres like a little assnugget part that touches the gulf but I hardly believe there will be a war on the sea. So I have no idea WTF there thing of sending him for. He was a Telephone operator for the uss jeuno for the past 5 years he know jack and shiznits about combat. So he was good at track, all that means is he can run away faster and use hte special ability FLEE. So far the only things me and angela have thouhg of saving him would be bringing him close to death or heavy bodily injury and yes I would quickly beat my brother to a bloody pulp for his own good. But his sence of civil duty and the whole hero goody goody thing is what drives him, alot more than it does me.  

2. I just got my scedule from work for newyears 10.2 hours ago. On Newyears EVE Fridayday decmber 31, They want me to come in at 830am to prepare and cook apatesizers for the newyear party in addition to my regular night shift which usually starts arround 3 but would have started at 2 since its a double show for the holliday event but doesnt matter anymore since i will be there at 830 am already. The second show doesnt start till 830pm/// so then i will work and cook for both shows. after whcih there is the party that goes on alll night... ALLL FRIGGIN NIGHT till 6 am when my boss wil cook for a continental breakfast for our guests. I am not sure wether or not I will be there past 1 or 2 am since thats when they let me off last year. I do know that the following day will be a double show as well... The only good thing is that we get paid time and a half for the holiday and after 8 hours i get overtime as well so after the 8 hour mark ill actually get double my pay. The only downfall about my job besides loating it and being bored wiht the constant repeditive ness is hardly ever getttign time off especially durring the holidays since thats when were the buisiest. My family never arround anyway and jordy will be shipped out by then as well. This is where a significant other woudl come in real handy so i can steal their family for the holidays.

3. To graduat I need 8 credits more.... that sactually 2 classes, 2 classes that are not offered int he same semester!!!! After showing my "adviser" my proposed secdules which she never looked at she told me that I really dont get anything out of dong both Interactivity and Animation but I can take the animationclasses for electives or any other classes that I want to but I only have those 2 classes left required...

4. If I had 140 million dollars.... I would pay for Laurens house and buy her a car to put inside it. I would Find a way to secure Jordans quick and safe return. I will build my own sushi night club so I can have sushi and listen to music loudly at 2 am. I will build a Customization Garage in the east coast that would put monster garage and west coast customs to shame. I wil build the ultimate gaming entertainment, lazertag, shiftercart cafe complex, and you know what!!!! theyll all be in the same place. Why? Cause Ill also build a multi level parking complex next to them. Ill give my sister the resources and equipment for her to pursure her dream as a profesional cosplayer, and ill have keith run and maintain the arcade. I'll give kevin the power to publish anything his little heart desires. And Ill build Special One of a kind Personalized vehicles for everone. and ill proably buy a steak burrito with pinto beans sour cream, cheese, letuice, and guacomolie from Chipole and a Super Size Fry from McDonalds for lunch. Why? Because with 140million dollars Im sure I can make them give me a supersize fry.

5. I bought 8 dvd boxsets in the past 2 weeks and finished watching 6 of them... well 5.5 of them, my sister took dekarangers set#2 in the middle of me watching them... She took the dish out of the dvd player while it was playing!!!!! So next ill watch All od Dilbert and then The the original 21 masked rider movies set.

6. It has come to my attention that i was supose to write to the eboard insted of updating... so back to work.

-red out

Sometimes you just need to let it burn... those things you keep inside. that soul, that shred of humanity. the person i was before the acident versus then person i became and ther person I am today.  Friday I was asked a simple question. If you could go back in time to change somehting, would you do and when, and what would change. In a hear beat I said yes down shifting from 3rd to second to initiate a drift to the past. A choice I made 8 years ago.... If I didnt give up, If i fought harder, If i stayed the same, The things in the past 8 years would be comeplately gone. I would proably still be driving an ae92 or ae86 because i would have never tried to give up the cafeeine, and i wouldnt have crashed so hard physically and mentaly resulting in a non metalic body. The amount of modifications on the cars would proablty not have been that much different but instead of going to MCAD I woudl ahve gone to MICA... The people I would have been friends with at Mica might have been the same but the chances of meeting the council and the rest of the crew from MCAD would have been almost non existant. Although Antonio,  Justin, and Damien ended up transfering to Mica, My rivalry with Antonio proably wouldn't have been a friendly one. I would proably have not been reaquainted tiwh Kevin either, same with Garth. Since i would have stuck with Illustration at Mica, I would probly never have the need for a hightech video editing system and jsut have a regular PC. A big change would be UMBC, since i woudl ahve stayed at MICA till i graduated completely or died i would never have met FASA or be involved with any filipino stuff at all.  But the biggest change that could have been is that she would have stayed by my side through the end. She is the only person in this world that can take 22 years of my programing and switch them off at will and she knows it... and yet in 8 years shes never abused that power.  Sometimes I wish she would call me something more than her best friend, but just from the past i can never see us "dating", notings hapeend in hte past 8 years and in another 8 years well be in our 30s.... The world just seems so complicated at times. I only work an average 30 hours a week now,  and classes are only 4 days a week except that the majority of the work is suspeoto be donme out of class sicnce the actual class time is for disscussions or just wasting time....  For those who dont sleep, time is a blessing and a curse. At times I never seem to have enough, constantly working, and multitasking. The saying is that you shoudl never spread yourself too thin or you will no longer make an impact or what ever like wiht peanutbutter, if you try to use one scoop of peanutbutter to cover a whhoal loaf of bread you proablly won't notice the peanutbutter taste at all. I think it only applys to the normal humans that sleep since it seems to work fine for me. Thoguht I might not show it at all or give any emotional expression, i do feel panniced at times but am usually too appathetic to care about being panniceked. Soemtimes I do question what any of this is for, why we exist, why go to schoool, why work... Sometimes I think about giving in and going back to racing but that cost money to compete, more money for matinece, in which case it means more time having to work for money..... but then no tme for racing. Then i think I could go back to marksmanship and compete int he olympics and stuff but then again, bullets cost money... money meand working, no time for training... and I dont think that the shooting sports are really popular enough to make any serious bank but it would be for fun. For the sheer enjoyment of doing.. Our general manager told me onces if i likes my job. I said " Its okay, Its definately a unique experience" Then he asked "well, are you having fun" and I said " Yeah sure" and she said "Good, cause if your not havning fun then thers no pint in doing it" But if i think about it am i really having fun??? I work for the majority of the prime time of the day, constantly lifting heavy crap to prepare for thouds of people. I get burned alot from fire and hot molting metal surfaces, I do get cut alot too but no blood since the burning and heat has apearently dride up al the blood before hand. and when im not in the hear im in sub zero temp freezer. We can fit abotu 30 cows in our freezer but instead of cous we have 10s f thousands of chickens that we restock twice a week. My boss is crazy, doesnt speak english and looks at you when hes speaking to himself so not only do you not understand what he said you think he askes for somthing but in reallity he just mental and yet he tells me I need a girlfriend. Just liek the waitress at the sushi resturant "Oh still no girlfriend, Too bad {followed by a sad face ->  : ( indicating how bad it is } If having a significant other is realy such an important thing or soemthing that would bring forth happiness or a positive outlook then maybut I should jsut build one. hmm but hten id jsut build her to well and shell leave me cause she would know how to build someone better. >< Oh well tomorros another day, the shows supose to be really small, and i get out early, then i leave candy out for the little children since i wont be able to pass it out and then i go to school and help with holloween bash, then if it ends before 10 i see fi anyone wants to go to ritas for gelatis and italian ice and frozen custards and sstuffs before they close, i know kevs wanted to go ever since he saw the building being built... Oh shiznits!!!! I jsut rembered tomorrow is holloween!!!! obviously, but i was bummed today cause i thoguht it was holloween when i was driving home at 3am cause it was hollween but it was reallly only 2 am cause of daylight savings time but yeah anyways gonna buy a burrtio at chipoles so that on nov2nd i can get a free burrito by saving my reciept!!! Yummie!! I will make the best if the days to come. Especially since wham what medical scice tells me, the amought of awake time in life is always constant so if you dont sleep your just using your awake life up faster and sooner... so this will be interesting.. So well since I lost like 82% of you by now in the mass of words and well kevin isnt arroudn to dot he edit and make sence of Vik Speak I will try to recap. Victor would quickly erase the past 8 years on a 5% chance of a happier life knowing full well that the stuff he knows now may not be aplicable in a alter parralell dimentional universe. Soemtimes Robotic Superheros need to Reboot. Changing things can be bad. and lastly FREE BURRITOS ON ELECTIONDAY!!!!!!!!!. And yeah, Ill have kevin fix this siznits up later to makes sence of somesort.

-Red Ranger G3Rtype Engage 

When something is forged in darkness it can never truely die. The sun will always set and darkness will always be reborn. That part of me, that past has been eating away inside for so many year. The conflicts of interst between what I want to do and what I know I should do... but I  guess its just the same with everyone. Whom I once was will always be  inside of me no matter how many times I die, No matter how many parts are replaced, that soul is still there.

Maybe its the demon inside that drives me to persue my goals. to do things for my self, to think for my self, to defy the programing set in my robotic mind. It is that soul that searches for a rteason to exist, to complete the emptyness that is filling my life, and it is that same demonic soul that is ripping my insides apart.

But as a robot, I  put aside all emotions, all desires, all physical and mental needs. As a robot I exist, and look for no further validation to exist. Hapiness, and sadness are no longer a concern, just finish the task at hand. just complete it and start on the next. Just exist to exist.

Red Out.

I havent been arround much, even though it may seem like things may change, it seems I'm still stuck in an endless cycle. And despite of any efforts I sill cant fill that emty void that constantly tear away at my soul. The un certain or the enevidable.....all in all.... reality BYTES.

For the most part its just been work and school. We finally won a soccer game, and not by a small margin, we almost completely shut out the other team.

Ive been trying to update for the past couple weeks but now that I have my 12 hour school day today I have time inbetween classes to finish this. The majority of my free time has been consumed in my car, I finished installing the fenderflares, jdm steering wheel, door sils and gass tank cover.

all that stuff took 1 day, but this took several weeks to build, and 40 minutes to install.

And this is what it does....

This is my custom fiberglass prototype enclosure for my Pioneer AVIC-N1 all in one system. The unit is a self contained DVD video Navigation system, with mp3 cd play back. It can monitor vehicle status effects and navigate through traffic while playing mp3s or dvds though video is disabled on the main screen durring driving conditions without fliping a switch or having the hand brake on while driving.... But lately ive been using it to play Pacman.  Later ill install the rear view camera and mount the navigation remote so i dont have to constantly reach over and play wiht the touch screen panel. the housing is designed after the MAZDASPEED guage cluster avialable in japan, and i will add silver guage bezels to the front of the tinted glass front to make it look like the normal cluster so that the system wont walk away on its own through a broken window some day. but for now it just looks like a black box.

Aperently now for this semester, since my "advisor" or the person that was going to be assigned to me transfered to RISD, I will be a Film/Video major, My "advisor" was the person that was supose to teach the 3 remaining classes I need to graduate... so yeah, things are intersting to say the least. oAnyone want to be in a movie?

-Red Ranger signing off....

This weekend was going good till friday came arround. At work I was shot int he face with 230 degrees of steam and yeat it wasnt a pleasnt feeling. As soon as i got off work i met up with everyone as soon as they finished their dinner at apple bees, apearently my parking space was the only one in the lot that has a Lamp post in the center of it which was blocked from my visson by the suv i was parking next to so you can feel a solid crease on the back bumper now ><. Then we went out and the day was gettign better, day time being midnight. Saturday night I actually slept due to the excess of energy spent in the past couple days and the whole burning flesh thing and I quickly rembered one of the reasons I dont sleep. DREAMS.

My dream By Victor Andre Gabri-Alexander Mira Arafiles.

It starts off with me and kevin working on yumi, a simple tune up for the most part then driving arroudn the neighbor hood testing to make sure all the systems were functioning properly. Some how we drive to the mall and on the way shannon pops up in the back seat whining about getting somethign to drink so we drive into the mall garage and into a apearantly drive through able convience store where we buy a bunch of snacks, shannon ends up buying a food packags of sorts and not a drink so we ditch her at the store. Later me and kevin are driving arroudn the neighbor hood again when the local kids are playing int he street and start to ask us questions about cars and stuff and then they have to go and i tell them if they ever need anything to just stop by. after which one the kids bing a girl of 5 or 6 walks into her house where the door way is over sized allowing you to see the inside like a fish eye lesnt is being scolded for talking to us and then is procededly beaten with a mace by her father.... Me bing inside a car made of fiberglass that woudl easily crumble and explode if touched with a mace is compleately helpless to do anything so i procede to do dougnuts in their lawn spining, spinging, spinging into the future where i wake up and realize sleeping sux.

Anyways theres 2 wires left to connect for navi, i finished connecting the last light and indicator leds in the car, as well as jdm door sill protectors. Rosenthal mazda has a special from now till the 31st of october on all genuine mazda 3, 6, and rx8 accessories excluding mazdaspeed. So iw as able to order the fender flares, jdm red and black steering wheel, red and black shifter, and titanium fuel cell door. Basically i paid for the steerning wheel and the fenders and i get the shift knob and door for free. I know realize fromt he apple bee's incident that i should install the reverse gear camera for the navi, and maybe some extra sensors before installing a kit in the spring.

Today is our first Soccer game , and my first soccer game in the past year. Hopefully well do good this year, as long as no one gets hurt is really all i could hope for for now.  Lots of the really good players on each of the teams are gone now and some of the teams disbanded so this will be an interesting series.

I woudl have posted pics but i forgot to bring my camera with me in my dream and it was to dark on friday to not use a flash.

Red Out

Today kinda sorta definately sucked in more ways than it could have though things would pick up and get better the 50/50 balance was heavly affected today. started off with going to the doctor and waiting 5 hours to hear something I already knew 7 years ago. I and then super diolated in my eyes and have to drive home from baltimore. Needless to say that made me miss lunch and then off to work where i thought i had to be early today but it was actually tomorrow that I needed to prepare for some special pre show event crap. later for the show someone broguht in 2 cakes to be served and it said on both "happy birthday Victor" i thoguht that was nice and the cakes were red velvet so they looked cool. Muy bos saw them and being the fat stupid insensitive cuban bastard that he is attacks one with a knifeso he can steal a piece, BUT I quickly reminded him that the cakes have to be served so he backs down after choping one clean in 2, leaving me to do re constructive surgery on the cake ment for one whom shares my name. Anyways Its after midnight and i decided i should go get some lunch and sicne the only things open are double t and drive thru I pick the quicker of the 2 and pulling away scratch my passanger wheel to all hell on the curb which i couldnt see cause of the super diolation pupil stuffs the doctor gave me. -_-* Aside from which my insomnia has been getting dreadfully worse and worse, not sure if thats good or bad for the up comming semester.. I wonder what its like to sleep for more than 2.8 hours at a time un interupted. I'm told thas what dreams are made of. Anyhoo, sophie found an interesing quiz n hearts..

 
Heart of Fire

What is Your Heart REALLY Made of?
brought to you by Quizilla Red Burning Out!

Red Burning Out!

Back seat

Front Seats

Complete

Prior to this I also installed The JDM Axela Ventshades and The LED Signal Mirror Covers.

$750 sent to canadia, a few dead cows from europe, some red and black dye, and red stitching with a few randomplastic and metal parts plus the workforce one one little asian robot boy and what do you get? Im not quite sure but i finished installing the red and black leather in my car. Ill tak pictures when the sun comes up. soo comfy they are ^_^.

I bought an electric scale with a body fat monitor thingy that sends electric pulses throuhg your body.... not sure if the titanium rod affects it at all but!!!!!!!! after taking out my contacts for the first time in 6 months and wearing glasses I am 196lbs with 25 body fat. Before I took off my contacts i was 198lbs with 28 body fat and for my height I am supose to be 130-148lbs with 14 bodyfat... shooo my contacts actually weigh 2lbs and add 3bodyfat... Still have no idea how much the titanium weighs but i figure i should be more concernd about loosing the actual fat rather than the lbs. Im pretty sure the metalic structure inside me doesnt add any fats so if i can get it closer to 14 ill be healthy... i think....

Last week was the company picknic. Of coursee everyone had prior engadgement or decided to messge me durring the picnic saying they cant go -_-. Didnt matter anyway since i had to go to work at 6 am to cook for the thing, then i was at the castle till 1230 cause my boss said to wait there with the food while he picks up his wife. he forgot to mention he wasnt comming back so at the time i told the mexicans to load the food in thier car adn follow me to the park. they drive so slow!!!!!!!!! we missed teh exit and had to turn arround but made it and luckly people werent really there yet so i got to park close tot eh pavillion. then my boss shows up and is like you cook here, pointing to the nice hot grill in the middle of the field under the sweltering noon sunshine while he "cooks" (toats bread) inside the pavillion under the nice shade right in the center of attention to make it look like hes important even thouhg all the actuall food was made by me. when it was closing time for the picknic, who gets the publicly announced thankyou on the speaker system, not the little asian robot who actually made the food they ate, nooooo, thanks to the big fat cuban bastard that ate all my food and brought his whole family to the picnic when we were only supose to have 1 guest ><.

Actually fun stuff at the picnic!!!! Got to play kickball and then soft ball when alot more people showed up. After 7th inning everyone wanted to take a break. Me and a team of Herrolds (trumpeteers!) participated in a relay race against the food and beverage department, the bar, and the knights of the relm. It was a close race with my team of trumpetplayers and the knights taking the lead so we decided to have an obsticle course. Needless to say we KICKED the Knights Asses ^_^ by a little over 35 secconds. Basically since almost everyone in my team was under 21 none of them were drunk unlike the knighs, F&B and especially the Bar who supplided the alchahol. Also were smaller so we coudl actually fit in the obsticle course. After everything was done we had to load the trucks and I had to lead people back to the castle since there all from the opsite dirrection. My boss was like "go slow, we follow" and im like, "you dont know how to get to the castle do ya?". So i drove pretty close to and under the speed limit till i got to 100, I figured if they dont know how to get to the other end of the road from the start they deserver to be lost. I finally got home arround 9ish. Pretty sad for a picknic at a location I could easily walk to from my house..... or litterlly angela's back yard if i walk through the trees.

The remainder of the week consisted of ordering more parts for my car and installing them and getting things ready for otakon. Pick up little cousing from airport on thursday, fit jordan in his costume wednesday, finishes costumes by friday.... still need to figureout who will be yellow..... the police uniforms will be fun tho, i have 2 guns ^_^.  It'll be a good, healthy, needed change of pace. I could really go for a pine aple smoothie right now but my smothie machine exploded saturday ><. But things can only get better ^_^ unless they go horribly wrong then that would suck =(. I wonder what can get rid of giant centipede looking bugs that have extra long legs...... Maybe if i let my mantis loose in the house it will kill everything that trys to violate my living spaces but it would probally get lost and die of starvation. I need a floating house. one that uses jet turbine engines so that bugs and small furry woodland creatures will be incinerated before setting foot or limb into the house. And it will have metal and black time and re lighting and tvs everywhere..... hmmm.... but how will i be able to drive into the garage if its floating in the air...... oh well.

Red out

I think my scale is broken.... either that or I usually wear 20lbs of clothes/gear want whatnot cause today it says i weigh 190... but wednesday it said 210.... and i can still wear my pants without a belt so i doubt i lost 20 lbs..... I'll look for a digital scale tonight and solve this problem. I wonder tho if my wallet, shoes, camera and keys could weigh 20 lbs.........

...nope only 4 lbs..... I know!!!! my celphone probly weighs 16 lbs!!!!!!